I created this blog months ago but during all the wedding craziness and going to school and working I never got around to posting anything; but here it is 2 months after the wedding and we’re finally settling into things and I’m getting around to those little things I’ve wanted to get done.
It’s crazy to hear the words “husband, married, when are y’all havin’ kids now?, or what does life bring you next?” It’s like I’m all grown up now. And to think it was just 2 summers ago that I was packing up at end of July days to prepare for the big move to Texas, after the long and thrilling summer with so many of my amazing friends who I will never forget or never be able to say thank you enough to.
It’s crazy to think the day that every little girl dreams about (her very special Wedding Day!) has come and gone for me. The words my wise brother told me will always stick so close to my heart and be passed forward to anyone I know getting married: “Sit back, relax and enjoy it, because it’s over before you know.” Our wedding day was as perfect as I ever could have imagined it. I woke up with my first thought being, “The last time I talked to our caterer was in February (the first time I met with them). I guess if they don’t show we’ll order pizza!” We’ll of course my amazing mother had talked with Hickory Park the week before the wedding, but knowing that I could be so relaxed to not care if the food showed up was a great start to my perfectly imagined day. Of course minor things happened; I didn’t start getting into my dress until I was supposed to be in the hallway, my dress was torn when I got to the reception, etc., but 1 thing happened that day and it was the only thing that mattered. I got to marry my best friend in front of all our family and friends. I got to experience all my dreams come true on May 17, 2014.
But those days are over and now I’m to the married life. The next chapter of my life has begun. Everyone asks (anxious and excitedly), “is it different?” or “whats it feel like?” When I’m asked these questions, originally I can’t help but think to myself, “of course it’s different.” However, when I contemplate what’s different, most people don’t really get it. It’s different in the obvious way’s but it’s also different in way’s I would’ve never even considered before. Obviously, now we live together, now I call him my husband and I cook and clean for him to be the best wife I can possibly be. But it’s also different in that, the fights we used to have no longer lash out into the extremes that we would make them to be over the silliest of things. We have learned to sincerely appreciate one another for who we are, always. All decisions are made together, including God. After all, God wanted me to look at my husband and see Himself; and in order to fulfill His wishes, I must respect and love Kayne as I love and respect God. Married couples stick through things together, not giving up. Pushing through the good times AND the bad times. Times won’t be tough, but on May 17, I decided I wanted to marry Kayne no matter what happened to him or me, or what God set in front of us. He’s not perfect, and I am definitely not perfect. But, we will make the best of everything and work it out with God!
I look forward to spending everyday with my husband next to me and knowing that God is watching over me and guiding me everyday. I can’t say thank you enough for all He has blessed us with!